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[10 Mar 2003|04:59pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
BUt I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm addicted to you

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[10 Mar 2003|11:20am]
[ mood | calm ]

*looks over at the sleeping form laying on the couch next to him, smiles and gently rubs Jeremy's back* *whispers softly* It's ok baby, you're safe now, daddy's here.

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[05 Mar 2003|03:56pm]
[ mood | pissed, worried, etc. ]

*Sits at table in backroom of the dance studio, gripping the note left at the daycare. Waiting for the police to arrive, staring from the note to the empty car seat back to the note. Doesn’t move when someone offers water, just glares up at the person who was suppose to be responsible for his son, then looks back down at the note. Crumbles it up in his hand, cursing under his breath for how stupid he was to leave his son with perfect strangers who didn’t even keep an eye on him. Picks up cell phone, dials part of a number, but stops halfway, shaking his head and hangs up the phone, throwing it across the room.* Damn bastard.

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[20 Feb 2003|09:11pm]
I'm alive and so is Jeremy
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[09 Feb 2003|10:29am]
*sneezes* oops
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[05 Feb 2003|10:49am]
[ mood | depressed ]

I'm long due for a meanful long ass update.................................

oh well not today

I want a paid account

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[30 Jan 2003|11:10am]
[ mood | awake ]

Happy Belated Birthday Joey and Nick....and happy early birthday justin

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[22 Jan 2003|11:04am]
[ mood | whatever ]

I need to move away from LA. And I need new icons. And I need a new life.

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[13 Jan 2003|10:57am]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I need new friends

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[10 Jan 2003|11:16am]
[ mood | depressed ]

So how nice is it to wait up all night for someone to call or ever come over because the two of you need to talk and he never does.

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[02 Jan 2003|01:16pm]
So me and Jeremy spent New Years at home quietly, he fell asleep about 9 and I just sat on the couch watching Dick Clark's thingy.
I hate the way I feel, I love him with all my heart but I can't seem to shake this feeling things won't work out between us. I hate this, I need to just move on and forget my feelings for him and find someone new but I can't. I've kept everything to myself for 2 years and then one day I just told him, it was something I never meant to tell him but I did.
I go back to teaching classes on the 6th. It's going to be weird no with Jeremy but I know enough people there who are wonderful people and are great babysitters who can watch him while I am teaching. I just hope I will be able to let him out of my sight....I mean I missed the first 5 years of his life and now with work its going to be hard.
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[28 Dec 2002|06:10pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

So its back home, Australia was fun but I am glad to be back home. New Years is coming up, probably just going to hang out at home with Jeremy *shrugs* no real reason to go out...

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[25 Dec 2002|05:25am]
Have I ever mentioned how nice Australia is this time of the year? Nice and sunny, considering its summer here.
I came home for Christmas, after J talked me into…well he actually forced me to go. I swear if he was in LA he would have probably dragged me down to the airport himself.
My mom was shocked I came home; I guess she didn't think I would be back after our falling out…even though we did patch things up. I had sent her a present but as she put it…nothing was a better present than having her son and grandson come home for Christmas.
I can't begin to describe the emotions I am feeling right now…being home and having Jeremy with me is the best present I could of asked for. Which means no trial…my lawyer called me on Sunday and said her parents had thought about it and decided that it was in the best interest of Jeremy that he be with his father…me. Her parents flew into LA last night and that first time I held him in my arms I about lost it right then and there and started sobbing.
My mom was just floored to see Jeremy and me on her doorstep a few hours ago. She couldn't even speak…I think she was expecting the mailperson. I know she is happy to have me home this Christmas…considering it is the first one without my dad around.
Today I think I am going to stick with my dad's old tradition from when I was a kid and pass it along to Jeremy. Every Christmas morning he would take me down to the city and would spend the morning together, just me and him…my sister and brother never seemed to want to go and my dad has his own traditions with them so it wasn't like the were being left out. And then in the afternoon we would me up with the rest of the family at the beach and have Christmas dinner there while some crazy lunatic would dress up as Santa and skydive out of a plane and land on the beach near us.
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[24 Dec 2002|09:08am]
[ mood | shocked ]

Oh wow....I...um...I....oh....shit...wow.....

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[20 Dec 2002|05:57pm]
[ mood | confused ]

*blinks* Did I miss something? J call me...or are you still coming over?

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[18 Dec 2002|09:34pm]
[ mood | scared and worried ]

God oh god... *tries not to cry* Justin please call me or come please....I just...I can't say... *breaks down slighty*

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[18 Dec 2002|08:20pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I hate my life

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[18 Dec 2002|11:51am]
Happy Birthday Christina
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[16 Dec 2002|11:57am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Be happy, it’s a real update.

So I called my lawyer this morning to set up a meeting, luckily he had a free spot and was able to fit me in this morning. I told him about everything…wanting a divorce...Lance’s parents not returning my calls...and wanting my kid back.
I’ve been trying to actually see my kids or even talk to them but Lance’s parents won’t return my calls or even answer when I call. I don’t know if or what he told them but I just want him...he's are my own flesh and blood too.
The divorce might be a little hard to actually get it finalized just because of the fact I have no idea where Lance is and I can’t get him to sign the papers then. But my lawyer said he would take care of everything and call me in a few days to keep me informed, though he said most likely the whole thing will go to trial or something so I can actually get sole custody of Jeremy.
*sighs slightly and rubs eyes* I have a feeling the next few months are going to be rough.

*calls Justin’s cell and leaves a voice message*Collapse )

Well it’s back to work now, I’ve got two classes and then some meeting today *rolls eyes* Great…just what I need today.

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[15 Dec 2002|03:57pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

*sighs* I'm calling my lawyer on Monday.....I want my kid back....

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